Thoughts and Things

Now I don't play many games, except the Sims  (I will not be mentioning any specific Sims  things). But there are youtubers I watch that play other games. Of course I watch  The Sim Supply , and he posts amazing builds in the Sims , he also has a couple lets plays going on (my personal favourite is his Super Sim Challenge, which has been going on for about a year). He also has another channel he calls  Flabaliki  and this channel has many different games not Sim related. Some of those games are: Cities Skylines , Rollercoaster Tycoon , Planet Coaster , etc. They are really good videos in my opinion. Another channel I watch is  Deligracy . She plays a little bit of everything, mainly the Sims though. She has just recently started playing What Remains of Edith Finch  and I quite enjoy it. And if you're into watching Resident Evil , she has played a bit of that too (fair warning if you watch those, she can get jumpy). Another person I watch ...

So as I have mentioned, I am Canadian. Meaning I get to celebrate my country turning 150 this Saturday. I'll be honest, I'm not one who likes to celebrate. So my way to celebrate Canada Day is by painting my nails, and turning them into the flag (which of course the maple leaf did not look good, lol). Usually I would be sitting at home for the day while everything is closed, but this year instead I will be hanging out with my cousin over the weekend. This being said, I probably won't post anything on the blog this weekend. I will try to post before I leave tomorrow though.

I'm sure everyone has had a job before in their lives. I've had 2 jobs actually classified as jobs. I don't really count babysitting, and working at my mom's home daycare a job. And as of a week and a half from now I'll get to start a new job. Starting a new job is always nerve racking, and it may cause anxious feelings. I know. I went from working at home, to working in a public library, then to working in retail, and will now soon be working in a factory. We will all be fine with starting a new job. The anxiety and nerves go away eventually.

Why do I write? What's so exciting about writing? My answer to questions like that... I just find it calming, and it just suits who I am. Writing started when I was younger, and I was reading on a higher level than the other kids my age. I was always known as being a bookworm. Throughout school we were told to write stories, some people were better at writing than others. My little stories were always a page and a half long (written on lined paper, every other line, only one paper). My stories were always like that until I reached grade 8. By then I got an assignment where I had to write a story that was 10-20 pages long, typed. It was crazy, I didn't think I would ever be able to reach the 10 page mark, but I did, I managed to make at least 12 pages typed, which was over 15 pages written. From there high school hit, and writing relieved me of many emotions I had throughout the years, and into today (when I found the time, and writer's block wasn't in the way). As o...

Warning!!! Possible spoilers ahead!! Read on at your own risk!! I had previously saw this movie in theaters in February. And I thought it was cute. My friends took me to see it for my birthday, since it came out a week and a half after my birthday. I absolutely love Batman, and have called him my favourite superhero for at least a decade. Jump to today, since now I've saw it again, and can remember what actually happens there were some things I absolutely loved in the movie, and somethings I wasn't too crazy about. The things I loved were how its such a cute movie, I love how it shows the flashbacks and hints at previous batman movies, even the show with Adam West (may he forever rest in peace). I love how other fandoms are brought into the movie as well, from Dr. Who , to Lord of the Rings , to Jurassic Park , and Jaws . And even some of the older movies such as Godzilla , King Kong , and Gremlins . I also appreciated how they showed all the forgotten DC ...

I play sims. Need I say more? I can watch HGTV channel for at least 6 hours straight. I should be qualified. Although those are both valid for me, that's not the main reason I chose to go to school for interior decorating. It did start with sims, but I've always been an artsy person, and I took art for the 5 years (I took an extra year on top of the normal 4 years) I was in high school. In my grade 12 year my art teacher told me that she liked how I chose colours that go together. When choosing my colours I would just grab a handful of pencil crayons, and my artsy brain would like colours that would compliment each other, from various colour values (light to dark) within the same family making monochromatic art pieces, to grabbing colours that do not look like they would go together, and adding other colours so that they would work together. The following year, when I was in my victory lap/grade 13 I took a design class, and I quite enjoyed it. I learned the different ru...

Since I play a lot of Sims, I tend to do alright with decorating houses and rooms. I have noted that I have a specific type of decorating "go to". I have a thing for the beach, and I think that is what plays an important factor. My choices usually include a lot of blues, and beachy theme. Even in the Sims when I play I will make the cabinets white, and have 'light furniture throughout the home, or have two tone cabinets where the bottom cabinets will be a navy blue, and the upper cabinets will be white. And then I include blue accents throughout the home. This past year at school for Interior Decorating I forced myself out of that comfort zone, trying things such as using yellow as an accent colour, thinking of attempting red, then remembering that red is really over powering, and you gave to be careful with how you use it. Recently I built a house in the Sims, it was technically two houses on one lot, but one was my standard modern, and blue home, and the other I trie...

I've mentioned how I feel like I don't belong. But why? I'm 20, I know what I want to do in life. I've experienced heartbreak. I've lost a best friend I thought I would never lose (over a really stupid reason on her part). I've gone to college for a year. But why do I feel like I don't belong? I'll tell you why. I don't fit in because while everyone else my age has gone and been in more than 2 relationships (though technically I've only been in 1 officially), I sit at home alone. Everyone goes off about how they want certain things in relationships. I sit at home thinking " All I want is someone to court. Someone I could write letters to. Someone I could travel with. Someone who could understand how I want to stay pure. " Everyone else is doing "21st century things" and I stay at home with my cat, my internet, a book, and sometimes a puzzle. I don't think I've ever fit in. I've always told people that I'm an...

I've always loved the idea of travelling. I've on;y ever been to two places outside of Canada though: the USA (specifically New York, and Florida and driving through every state between the two), and the Bahamas. My list of places to visit is a really lengthy list though. I basically want to travel everywhere. My main goal being Australia. The other main places include France, Italy, Brazil, Greece, and much of Europe. Those are just the main places I would love to visit. I would never object to going to other places, unless I had personal concerns about going. So yes, just a short post today. Have a great day everyone! 😊

I'm come out and say it right away.. I'm an early bird. Some days its great, but where I'm currently working makes it sound unfortunate. I work in retail, and the store I work at is open until midnight, every night. This past week, since Wednesday, I had to be up until just after midnight. But then I take so long to fall asleep at night, I typically go to YouTube and watch some videos, and next thing I know its 2 am, and I'm just then getting tired, but I won't fall asleep until 2:30 am, and then I typically wake up between 7 and 8. It really sucks. And this week since I've been doing this since Wednesday night, I am ridiculously tired, and sleep deprived, and then the weather doesn't help either, giving me headaches from the humidity. Thankfully I only work twice this week, so I should be alright. The only thing keeping me going this week is my shopping trip with my best friend this weekend. I hope all you readers are doing well, and have things to look ...

Today (June 17th) my family and I went shopping for work clothes for me, since I'll be starting a new job in July, and as we were leaving the store, I started thinking about school. What if I don't like the college I'm transferring to as much as I thought? What if I get lost? (I know this will happen, I managed to get lost at my college last year). And  then my thoughts went to moving into residence... What if my roommates are complete strangers to me, and I have nothing in common with them? What if the residence doesn't room me with my friend, even though she requested me..? Its been tough, and unfortunately I'll need to deal with this anxiety until I move into residence on September 2nd. My life is crazy. What can I say? I have public problems, I have school problems, and I have (many) personal problems. I just need to figure out how to deal with these problems, and hope for the best.

Sorry I didn't post anything yesterday. I completely forgot, and then I had to work until midnight (my time). My internet was not working last night either for some reason, so even if I had something planned I wouldn't be able to post it. Today however I have done absolutely nothing except enjoy my day off from work, and relax my knee which has been hurting for some reason. I hope everyone who reads this is doing well, living life to the fullest. Accepting you and each other for who each of you are. I do not have much to say today unfortunately, but I just hope all of you are doing well.

Way back when everything was always a certain way. But today, there are different genders people can accept themselves as and can usually be accepted. There's different sexualities, and people can be accepted that way too. I've just recently come to accept that I am asexual. In case you don't know, that means that I'm not into "doing the nasty"/"doing the do" or however you phrase it. I've never liked the idea of it. I can be close with someone, and be romantic with them, but ask me to go further than that and I'll shrivel up. On the spectrum of asexuality, I find I fit best into the demisexual category. It is very similar to the overall spectrum, except for any sexual feelings may be formed after a strong emotional/friendship level has been formed. Sometimes the Sexual feelings are not formed at all. And I'm perfectly comfortable with that, since I'm not exactly comfortable with the idea, nor do I see the excitement in it. If anyon...

There's always things to get excited for in life, always. No matter what mood you're feeling, there is always something good and possibly exciting to look forward to. I take that right from personal experience, and from a dark time. For me, when my best friend moved away 4 years ago, I thought the world would end, she was the kind of best friend who could make the quiet (me) turn loud. Over those 4 years I didn't think to be excited about how great things would be when we finally get reunited again. I saw her 3-4 months ago, and it was like nothing had changed between us. We were both worried that the other wouldn't want to be friends anymore, but we got over that quickly. And now today, as I watch a person I've known for 16 years ignore me, she is here for me. Her and I have made exciting plans together, which we no doubt will achieve. We've both always wanted to go to Australia. And being from Canada, it's not exactly quick and easy to get to the othe...

Since I'm just starting with the blog, and still letting people figure out what I'm like, I figure I should mention what I do in my time. Since I am 20, I'm on summer vacation. My life consists of working, and I work in retail, so I don't work every day, and some days I'm thankful for that 😄 But by July I may be working in a factory, working every day of the week except weekends. When I'm not working during the summer I tend to be like most youths, and be on the internet all day. For me being on the internet consists of YouTube, and my personal social media. Sometimes the day will consist of playing my PS2 ( Play Station 2 ), and sometimes its Sims 4, sometimes it may even just be reading all day, it all depends on how I feel during the day. While away at school though, my program takes over my time, since it is a project based program. It is very time consuming, and I always like to do my best at projects, so I tend to focus (sometimes too much) on these pro...

Everyone has feelings, and everyone goes through them, whether they admit it or not. The key to being a strong person is knowing how to deal with these feels, or to at least mute them for a bit, until you feel you are ready to deal with them. Different people will deal with feels differently. And what works for one person may not work for another. It all depends on the person, and what is troubling them. For me, I had someone who I was very interested in, and then he vanished without saying a word. It crushed me. I didn't know what to do. My friends at the time thought I was depressed, but I wouldn't admit to that. I was always the happy, positive friend. But I knew I had to do something about it. I'm the type of person who enjoys reading and writing, so I gave writing a chance. I took everything I was feeling (which was a lot of sadness, and sometimes anger) and put it into the main character, then started writing in first person so I knew I would be able to see my emo...

I was originally going to try to post everyday, but I'm thinking, since I'm just starting out with this blog, I may just post whenever I feel like it, or at least if I have any thing I've already written which I would like to post. I don't plan to give up. It's WAY  too ear'y for giving up. But since it is summer break for me, I may not have all the time to post things. My life isn't exactly the calmest life, so if something happens I may post or if I just want to write I will post. This blog will be my new challenge, and I don't plan on giving up this challenge.

Sometimes when you do things, you think people will judge you. I'm not going to sugar coat it, and say they won't, because some people will. Over time you learn that the only person who should care about what you do is you. I play the Sims. Some people think its a stupid game, and that there's no point in it. That's exactly why I like it, there is  no point to it. I've been around this game since its original for the PC. Over time I've learned that I prefer building, over playing God in the actual game play (although some times I do feel the need to kill sims, because you can't play sims if you haven't done that at least once). Once you accept things, other things don't seem to matter, and good things may come from it. I enjoy the Sims, I play it when I can, and I usually build houses, or redecorate others. Yesterday (June 8, 2017) I was building a house, which took 3 hours, because I kept getting distracted, and no lie, a couple seconds after I ha...

To anyone who reads this... Hi. My name is Kristina. In case you didn't read my description, I'm a rather simple person who finds joy in putting my thoughts into writing. I love to express myself through the arts (such as house design, modern art, music, etc.), I also play the odd game, though my favourite has always been the Sims. I have always had a love for cats, and a love for books too, an odd combination considering cats are always shown laying on books, and interrupting people while reading or studying (which I can say, they really do interrupt you). I've always felt like I never belonged, that I was born in the wrong generation, just because I prefer writing, and letters, and "old fashion" things. Hopefully starting this blog will help me to fit in, and hopefully I keep up with it.